ETA describes himself as an artist, a “seeker of light.”
A New Beginning… Early morning, just got off of work, and that’s over part of downtown. And the sun was just beginning to come up. What I was thinking pretty much like daybreak; I was comparing that to the fact that we don’t look at AIDS the way we did 10 or 15 years ago. At least we shouldn’t. Back then we looked at it like a death sentence. I don’t look at it like that now. I went from one way of looking at it to brightening it up, I don’t look at it the same way now. It’s the same thing with the stigma of having the disease. At this point my HIV is on a need-to-know basis as far as I’m concerned. But it’s nothing that I feel like I’m ashamed of either. And you have to get to that point. You have to process things for yourself.
There’s still light even though the trees obstruct things. You still know that, all in all, everything’s going to be good. Everything’s going to be alright.
Faith… This was during sunset. The lights streamed through my window and hit one of the paintings I have on the wall. I’m a complete man of faith, and I got a product that made [the canvas] look like wood. And then I used a red ink, and it does look like blood on wood. Here the light just hit that perfectly.
Look For the Light… Remember to look for the light. …When I got diagnosed, I think I had a 21 T cell count. I had to process it. When I found out, it was in my mind that HIV might be the reason why my body’s failing me. My strength, endurance… At the gym I was going backwards instead of forwards. My equilibrium was off. My sight was off, my depth perception. And I did not want to admit it was going on even though it was back there in my head. But thinking logically, I just should’ve came to that sooner and said, “You know what, dude? This is what’s happening with you right now.”
Parting of the Clouds… Something to look forward to. It’s not about seeing the end, it’s about seeing what is next. Beyond stigma, there is a lot to look forward to.